How are you?
How’s it going lately?
Oh, you know. I’m getting by. You?
Oh yeah, I’m ok.
You know how many times I have had this conversational dialogue with people lately? Alot! Speaking of alot… alot of life has been happening to me lately. As you may or may not know; my Gma passed away at the beginning of last month. It has been a hectic storm of work and phones calls ever since. I haven’t really had much free time for security and OSCP practice since it happened. I'm not sure ill get much going forward until things settle down. I’ve been mainly trying to maintain two houses, move from one to the other, get ready to move forward with estate business stuff like sales and dividing property, and all the while trying to court and retain a new lady friend.
It’s been stressful to say the least. One silver lining, I guess, I’m not sure if this is from being busy or haven taken care of her for three years now and seeing her decline but, I haven't been as emotional as I thought I’d be. When my gpa passed I had several emotional outbursts, and it's not to say I haven't had any emotions this time around, but my emotional response is much more muted and level then it has been in the past. I miss her dearly and wish every day I could have her back, but I am also not sitting around blubbering constantly like past me has done before. I don't know. Just something I have noticed.
Also, I need a day off. Between packing, moving, filing, boxing, unboxing, finding, arranging, mailing, mowing, mowing, and mowing I’ve not been much fun. There is no shortage of things to do and not enough time to do them in. But that is the way it goes… I say to myself as I pick up another mouse poop covered file from the 70s.
Really though.. I’m getting by. I got a lot of life going on but I’m getting by.
Black Ice by Ben from 26 July 2019
Really digging the new Too Many Zooz song and look. Black Ice!
SuperArgo where are you? by Ben from 3 July 2019
Sometimes people disappear, and I wish I knew why. This is something that has always plagued me. I need to know the end of the story. I need to know what happened. Whatever the results are doesn't matter. I just need to know the story sometime.
In highschool, I was a massive fan of a dude named SuperArgo from Lawrence, KS. He opened for an MC Chris show and blew my mind. His form of electronic music was new to me. He introduced me to what would become later chiptune music. I bought a couple of his CDs. I remember always wanting to go back to see another one of his shows. I listened to both discs about 100 times.
So, I find myself today sitting and thinking and internally asking myself: what happened to SuperArgo? So I went to his website. His website is down. It is kaput. Gone. His digital legacy wiped away. I went through my big old stack of disks I had laying around in spindles.. Nothing… can't find the CD’s I had bought. I dug up some old drives that I had.. Nothing. About 2 years ago I lost all my data and have been re-hoarding every since. He was a casualty of that loss, apparently. I remembered he had some songs on myspace, but myspace recently lost all their historical data… myspace still has the track names and such but they don't load, so again his songs are gone.
He also used to put his songs on a website called MicroMusic. This site does exist still and does have 2 of his songs available to listen to. However, they won't let you download them without joining up. So I signed up, however, I think that the account creation process is not automated. I never received an email confirming my membership. So….. this leaves me again unable to find alot of his music and unable to keep what I did find. I started going over the code using FireFox's built in tools. By analyzing the code that loaded on MicroMusic I was able to figure out the url that the browser was requesting when you click play. Analyzing this url showed me that the content has a set ID. All you need to know is the ID of the song you want and then you can download any song or all the songs on MicroMusic. I also found that if you omit the user id from the url it will let you download any song without checking to make sure you have session lasting less than 15 minutes. I may or may not have taken a copy of the sites songs. I think they won't be lasting much longer, so preserving these things seems appropriate. However, I will share the 2 SuperArgo song I was able to get from there. I think this site may be about to go as well. Its last song upload was 2018 and 2017 before that... 0_0 ... not good!
So, as I start to run out of options to find this long lost music that I remember loving so much. All this and so far all I’ve gotten is 2 songs. I turn to the old Way Back Machine. It does have archives of the SuperArgo site going all the way back to the beginning. However. this only nets me one song to download. There are three listed. One goes to MicroMusic, one actually downloads, and the other does not. So, I downloaded the one song of his I could get from the Way Back Machine. Which now brings me to 3 songs total. I also started using the WBM to scour deeper. I wanna find this dude.. Find his name, see if he has a Facebook, Insta, Twitter, Linkedin or something like that. Any other web presence that I can use to get me one step closer to a discography.
Going through the older versions of his site I couldn’t find any of the old journal entries. I think they linked outside the site, but I was able to find an older info page that had his name and birthdate on it. I am clearly not going to share this with any of you, privacy and all that. I don't wanna dox some random dude. However, I am fairly certain that I have found him and his FB page. I after I found his name I was able to also find a couple articles about the band written on a couple websites and I was able to click through the links from Lawrence.com to find yet another song. So thats 4 songs now. I also found on Lawrence.com a podcast that he did. It has a couple cuts from some songs I also cannot find. I also found a song on Youtube that I converted into an MP3. So not including the podcast that’s like 5 songs. After all that.. Just 5. But that is better than no songs i guess.
From what I can tell he may now work at the production company that I originally bought his CD from when I was in highschool, but that's unconfirmed. I found his twitter that indicated as much. It all seems unused since about last year however. He seems to have dropped off again.
I reached out to him on Facebook. He never responded to my message. I might try twitter. Maybe I’ll never reach him. He may not be active. He may hate his SuperArgo alternative ego. He may be afraid of it. Afraid of the melting faces he left behind in the bars all those years ago. I may never know. I am going to share all the songs that I have found and the podcast. If he doesn’t like that I’ll take em on down. Maybe he will read this article and send me a copy of the disks. If you guys have any SuperArgo CD rips or anything like that please send them to me. I wanna know what happened.
SuperArgo - To Charlton Heston Remix
SuperArgo - Backspace Statement
SuperArgo - Straight out of the cubicle
SuperArgo - Seymour in Transit
Skates - Green Vans (SuperArgo Remix)
Lawrence.com podcast with songs.
So SuperArgo's human form contacted me. It was the guy I thought it was. He was really nice and congenial. He asked that I remove the music from the site. No bigs. I still left a list of track names but I have removed the links and files. No problemo, I mean it is his music. As if hunting him down on the internet wasn't creepy enough I proceeded to ask him some personal questions. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I'll keep his replys to myself but at least I know some more of the story.
Tough couple months by Ben from 29 May 2019
I've been going through alot lately. I've had alot of pressure put on me that I didn't want. I have more responsibilities now then what I would ever wanted for myself 5 years ago. There are people depending on me now. Some times it starts to get a little overwhelming and frustrating. I am constantly second guessing myself and my decisions. All I really wanna do is bitch about it, escape it. I just wanna turn it all off and disappear sometimes. Push the power button, pull the plug, flip the switch... anything for a break sometimes.
But then I have days like Saturday. I had a giant list of things to do... and I watched Star Wars all day. Not productive in the slightest, especially considering I sat through the entire Phantom Menace. Days like Saturday exacerbate everything sometimes. Yes, I was able to relax for a while, but only at the expense of some responsibility I have. Which is not really a break at all. It's just procrastination.
But, finally, I feel like I am starting to get my feet under me. I feel like I am finally starting to gain back some control of things. I definitely still have alot of stressors out there that are constantly worrying me but I feel better about it today for some reason then I have in a while. I don't know. Nothing has changed. If anything, things have only gotten more complicated in the last week. But, I figure we have to do what we have to do regardless. We just have to power on sometimes. Just gotta get to the next item on the list.
I need to learn to trust myself more and I need to figure out a better way to motivate myself sometimes. I think that's the point of this post.
Side note: this orchestra did a tribute to Keith Flint and I really really liked it.
Go gettem tiger! by Ben from 19 February 2019
I thought this was pretty funny. Dudes really getting after it!
I have been doing a lot of coding lately. I have been switching all my apps from Sharpdevelop To Visual Studios. Normally this typa nerd talk would be relegated strictly to my security blog. However, I just wanted to take some time out to talk about how much I have been enjoying it.
Working on my Store Checker application for work has been very challenging, in a good way for me. I have been forced to re-learn and re-write a lot of my older code and it has been a fun trip down memory lane so far. Getting back into an older frame of mind and remembering how things flowed and why things were done the way they were can be a trip. Figuring out solutions to problems I was stuck on back in the day has been very rewarding in terms of my self worth lately. Sometimes knowing you have a little bit of control can go a long way.
As for my existing personal apps Ping Scanner, Port Knock, and TraceMON updating all of them and fixing up their UIs a bit has been pretty rewarding as well. These tools represent my intellectual journey into programming and computer security. I'd like my applications to represent me as a programmer/nerd. They are like my digital resume so to speak. Having a smoother UI and better code never hurts that goal.
And born out of necessity comes Time Keep. It's a pretty simple application but I have thoroughly enjoyed making something new... birthing something into the world. My only hope is that people will find it helpful. For me it fulfills it simple purpose perfectly.
I've been pretty low lately. Home and work are stressful sometimes and getting to sit down and figure some code out is just the intellectual stretch that I have been needing to me keep going.
Chemical Bros still banging! by Ben from 3 February 2019
The Chemical Brothers are about to drop a new album. I have heard some a bit in advance.. and I must say. Its going to be fucking great! Check out this new song.
Feeling my boy Marc today! by Ben from 31 January 2019
This has my head nodding hard!
Weapon of Choice by Ben from 22 January 2019
The new Weapon of Choice remix outa FatboySlim is a decent take on an old classic. What do you think?
Of course it is hard to beat my man Christopher Walken in the original! This video is still a classic in my mind.
BREAK YA HIP!
Final Robot Legs by Ben from 16 January 2019
It makes me so happy that robot legs are becoming a real thing!
Moon Hooch - Growing Up (Live at Nectar's Lounge) by Ben from 6 January 2019
I really want to see these guys live. So I am taking some time off in FEB to see them when they come to Tulsa.
Yo Team! It's been a while. by Ben from 6 January 2019
Hey Guys, It's been a while since I have made any posts or updates to this site. Well, That's changing today. Instead of using social media for posting and sharing content with people I am instead going to move all my sharing and posting to this site or my other blogs depending on the interest. Check back regularly for more posts.
Hello World by Ben from 21 Oct 2016
Hello World! My name is Ben Miller. I am just a nerdy guy with an interests in IT security, tech culture, retro gaming, and alternative living. I like to think of myself as a digital shaman. I've enjoyed all things tech since I was a young tike. I've ran the gambit from building my first computer on the floor of my buddies room in middle school to setting up pirate World of Warcraft servers in high school to now helping manage a massive network. Tech has always been a passion of mine. Currently I am diving head first into computer security. My goal is to build tools and write code that people find useful and to help spread awareness through actively educating myself. Check out my blog here.
Well, That's just like your opinion, man. - The Dude